Pediatric

Day 3 of Pediatric Posting.

Currently still in the blur and lost phase of a new posting. Children are not small adults. Thats absolutely true. Everything is new and since we have never had any paediatric topics before, this whole posting is new. I need to pick up my momentum fast. There isn't much time to waste. Five weeks passes very fast. But how do I pick up speed when I fall asleep every 3 paragraph? I don even know which books suits me. Damn.. This aint good..

Revision for Internal Medicine

Having holidays does not mean time to rest and play. Holidays are time to catch up on studies and do revision. Such is the life of a medical student. A bit sad huh.After spending the last 5 days of my holidays in relative rest, it is now time to revise for EOS. Urrggh. This proves much harder than I expected. Firstly since its holidays and more importantly, Internal Medicine simply shuts my brain off. Sigh. Maybe I do prefer Surgery over Int Med. Nevertheless, I still need to revise Int Med. But how do I make it more interesting? How do I contain the vast amount of informations in my brain? If only I could download them in like how Neo does in Matrix. Would be nice. ;)

Happy Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day. To all mothers (especially mine), Happy Mother's Day. =)

Mothers are the most selfless people in the world. They can sacrifice anything for their children. Nothing is too much to ask for. They never complain, they never whine and they are always ready to give. Starting from the 9 months we were conceived in her womb till the very end of our lives, our mother will always be there for us. Perhaps we should do more for our mother's in return.

How did you celebrate your mother today? Whatever you did, I'm sure it your mother will be happy. Mother's are easily contented. All they wish is for their children to be safe, grow up and show love and care for them. It is not hard at all. The important thing is to do this everyday, 365 days a year and not just on Mother's Day.

Love your mother everyday. Do not wait till May to do so because Everyday Is Mother's Day.

Love you always mum. =)

Ortho Long Case

I can finally put my Ortho books away for awhile. Long case today turned out okay, apart from the fact that I waited 4 hours to present my case. The case assigned to me was a Femoral Neck Fracture. Mr Naik didn't ask me that many question. Perhaps because it was late or perhaps because I'm the 8th or 9th student under him. hahaha He ended the session by saying I did okay. Let's see how this would translate to in grades. =P

Reflecting back on how I used to study during year 1 as compared to how I am now, I can see a tremendous change. Perhaps if I studied as hard as I do now 3 years ago, I would have gotten better grades. Perhaps I would have a much stronger foundation than what I have now. Perhaps if I have a time machine, I would advice my younger self to avoid these mistakes (along with some others) and do much better. I guess I have grown wiser over the years. Have I? =)

Of True False and OBA

Coming to the end of my 5 week in Orthopedics, we face the inevitable. Exams! Today we sat for our Psychiatry and Orthopedic MCQ paper.

The paper consists of the usual True False, OBA and EMQ. And as usual, the dilemma throughout most of the paper was not about the right answer but rather to "answer or not to answer". Why? Negative marking of course. We don't want to loose our hard earned marks do we? haha

Orthopaedic MCQ was ok. It was do-able. Not that I'm gonna score in it, but I can safely say I passed that paper. Psychiatry on the other hand was different. Our course coordinator, Dr Rajan was right. The paper was tough. Sigh. Hopefully I have enough correct answer to pass that paper.

Tomorrow will be my long case. After that, my long awaited 1 week break. Oh, break has never felt this good. After spending 3 weeks consecutive weeks in Seremban, I really do need a break.

(Posted 1 day late due to Internet glitch)

A time of reflections

Week 4 of Orthopaedics.

I guess there are times when we need to sit in one corner, look deeply inside and reflect on ourselves. Reflect on what has been happening lately, how have things been turning out, what we have done lately. Self reflection. Indeed, i need to find my corner.

Things have not been going on well. I wonder, what have I done wrong? Perhaps I should have been studying harder. Perhaps I should have been studying "smarter". Perhaps I should have been nicer. Perhaps less critical. Perhaps I should have been less annoying. perhaps I should just SHUT MY BLARDY MOUTH! Perhaps things would have been better. Perhaps perhaps perhaps.

What is wrong with me? How did I go from someone that is likable to someone obnoxious with symptoms of Mania? I talk too much. I Bullsh*t too much. That's for sure. I don't study enough. My circle of friends is diminishing till the extend i wonder if i even have any friends. Have i been loosing friends or have everyone started becoming tired of my nonsense? Perhaps they have had enough of tolerating me. Is that it? Its depressing to see that everyone has a circle of friends. People they study with, go to wards with, do stuff with. And then i look at myself and Im a damn loner. I don have friends to study with, i study alone. I don't have anyone to go to wards with. I tag along with groups who somehow give me the feeling they just don want to chase me away because I'm from their batch.

Are people just tolerating me because they pity me? Is that it? It feels like Im being included because no one wants to be with me., Because i don't have any friends. Because im a screwed up person. What is happening? How did things turn out this way? I want to be my old self. I want to be what i was. I want to be how things were before. How did it change? I wish someone would tell me.

Am i being too harsh on myself? Am i being delusional? Am i over judging myself? Really? I hope so. I truly hope all this are just made up by my mind. But how would i know? I have had this thought before. I have asked myself this before. I have been through this. Yet i never got the answers to my questions. Could someone tell me? Please. Tell me. I need to know the truth.

Total Hip Replacement

The surgery I'm not meant to see.. Total Hip Replacement. Went into the OT today hoping to witness a Total Hip Replacement by Mr Naveed, but was chased away by OT Sister. No reason given. Just a "You can't be here". O well, OT sister, being OT sister if u know what I mean.. sigh.

Asked a senior about it, apparently its to maintain sterility. That seems to be the reason to chase us out of OT, bar us from going in as well as a darn good reason to screw us early in the morning for no apparent reason. The things we medical student go through just to learn. Perhaps its much easier to be lazy. I'm sure some people (look above) will be happy if we are lazy and just stay at hope rather than be in the OT.

I'm extremely backed up on my studies and its already the middle of week 3. Looks like I need to stay in Seremban the next 2 weekends just to catch up on my studies and to revise for EOP and MCQs... :(