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1st Failure in Clinical School

I have just received my 1st failure in Clinical School. Or should I say my 1st and 2nd failure.. sigh.

Results of our last MCQ paper was released today. I collected it and i found out that I failed both my Obstetrics and Pediatrics MCQ paper. How was this possible? I was really sure I passed my Obstetrics and I was sure I would probably pass my Pediatrics. Even if i didn pass my pediatrics, I didn expect myself to do so badly. i got a C- for Obstetrics and a D+ for Pediatrics. (Passing mark is a C)

Sigh. This is sad. I think its because of the True-False section. It always pulls down our marks and causes us to do badly. the good news is, True-False questions will be completely replaced with One Best Answer next semester. I hope this change would include us in Semester 8 and not just the juniors in Semester 6. I really really really hope so. And I speak for most of my batch mates too. Get rid of true false questions please.

Obstetrics

Obstetric posting started out highly stressed, (augmented even more by EOS stress) highly intense and alot of pissed off moments. Nevertheless, I can confidently say that Obstetrics is one of the best and my best loved clinical posting so far. =)

A friend asked me why I like Obs. Honestly speaking, I don't know. Its just something that attracts me. Something that catched my interest. It's something that I know I should be doing. Like a calling. The same reason I'm in med school. hahaha

Perhaps this will be what I will be doing in the future after all. As MZ said, I am going to "marry" all the woman in the Obstetric Ward. hahaha

MRCOG. Keeping my fingers crossed. May this work out well.

Idiotic Days

There are days that can really make you feel like a complete brainless, idiotic retarded idiot. That would be the day you feel small and useless. You will feel like giving up. It feels like there's no hope and no point. At times you are belittled by yr own actions. But most of the time its what others do. I'm definitely having one of this moment right now.

But i cannot give up. I'm tougher than this. I'm better than this. Yet I wonder. How? How do I pull through this? I really feel like dropping everything and just give up. But I cannot do so. I cannot give up now. If I give up now, I will be screwed forever. So how does one survive? I'm about to explode. Or breakdown. Or throw a kid out the window (hypothetically not literally). I wish I knew the answer................

Do I try to read the 3000 word book, fail to complete it and fail or should I stick to my thinner books and also fail? Either way, I don't see the difference. The end result is a failure. I am so gonna fail my Paediatric Posting. Clinical and Theory. Damn.

Pediatric

Day 3 of Pediatric Posting.

Currently still in the blur and lost phase of a new posting. Children are not small adults. Thats absolutely true. Everything is new and since we have never had any paediatric topics before, this whole posting is new. I need to pick up my momentum fast. There isn't much time to waste. Five weeks passes very fast. But how do I pick up speed when I fall asleep every 3 paragraph? I don even know which books suits me. Damn.. This aint good..

Revision for Internal Medicine

Having holidays does not mean time to rest and play. Holidays are time to catch up on studies and do revision. Such is the life of a medical student. A bit sad huh.After spending the last 5 days of my holidays in relative rest, it is now time to revise for EOS. Urrggh. This proves much harder than I expected. Firstly since its holidays and more importantly, Internal Medicine simply shuts my brain off. Sigh. Maybe I do prefer Surgery over Int Med. Nevertheless, I still need to revise Int Med. But how do I make it more interesting? How do I contain the vast amount of informations in my brain? If only I could download them in like how Neo does in Matrix. Would be nice. ;)

Happy Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day. To all mothers (especially mine), Happy Mother's Day. =)

Mothers are the most selfless people in the world. They can sacrifice anything for their children. Nothing is too much to ask for. They never complain, they never whine and they are always ready to give. Starting from the 9 months we were conceived in her womb till the very end of our lives, our mother will always be there for us. Perhaps we should do more for our mother's in return.

How did you celebrate your mother today? Whatever you did, I'm sure it your mother will be happy. Mother's are easily contented. All they wish is for their children to be safe, grow up and show love and care for them. It is not hard at all. The important thing is to do this everyday, 365 days a year and not just on Mother's Day.

Love your mother everyday. Do not wait till May to do so because Everyday Is Mother's Day.

Love you always mum. =)